whine and dine

as the freaking eldest, it is expected that i look after the younger ones. but hello PARENT, do you even do what you're supposed to do??

discipling them is not my job. i care about my little brother but i am not sorry to say that i dont really give a fuck about those two gals who think they're living ala gossip girl or the o.c.

you always tell me to always keep an eye on them? so what do you do while i try to?? fuck your whore?? huh??

i want to cry now. i want my mom. i want her home. it's very comforting to have her around but then she goes out daily. comes home late. it's better if she's here.

what the hell. you want me to act like a parent to THEM? news flash, i dont wanna. it's your fucking job and you suck so much at it. you haven't done anything.

you tell me that you think that i dont care about them. you're wrong. i care about my brother. add my mother.

it's so annoying. you're so stupid. i try to do what you say, like correcting things. i try that. but you're so stupid.

you let them get away with things when they should be lectured. are you fucking crazy??? you're letting the damned girls think they're paris and nicole when we aren't even half of their status. fucking stupid. why would you let them buy P21,000 slimming and beauty gel?? huh?? you tell us to be practical and you let them spend that much on stupid products?? it will also help to tell your stupid 15 year old and 14 year old daughters that they do not need such products.

where is your fucking common sense? putangina. ate jasmin is freaking smarter than you. our maid who only finished grade school has more common sense and is smarter than you.

you let me transfer my brother to a better school. one week passed, he got sad. and you promised him you'll transfer him to his former school? are you insane? why don't you let him adjust first you fucking fuckhole? isn't it normal for a kid to undergo stages like that??

fucking stupid. how many times do i have to say that. good thing that i haven't you for days because i will only get fucking pissed all over again. better you're far away. so much better.

i might agree with you in letting me and my brother move out though. i dont care if i get separated to the two dumbies.

actually, i'll be fine without you and them.

wait til i graduate.

for my sanity's sake, i think i have to give up graduate school or med school.

it's a bad idea. forcing us to eat together. dinner was just marvelously horrible.

i always think of how much i loathe you. it's been what, 15 years? when does a child start being so conscious?

it's not my fault i turned distant. how can you accuse me of being a cold person. how can you accuse me of being distant to my sisters.

i might have to smack you in the head with a keyboard. remember when you threw a fucking metallic potty to my head? i want revenge. maybe then you'll remember why i'm so distant to them. rewind your memories to summer 2007, bitch. add everything that you did to mom then you'll know why i just so fucking loathe you. i dream of killing you, you know.

masama bang di ako comfortable kasama sila??